I’ve been thinking about my pain condition recently, and it occurred to me to wonder – would I be asexual if I wasn’t in constant pain?
My first crush happened when I was in second grade. And it was adorable and so cute, and mostly me thinking he was cute and that I wanted to dance with him. (I was very into ballet.)
Water is used for Baptism, and obviously holy water is used for the Sign of the Cross at the beginning and end of Mass, so it carries this sense of blessing. Also, “In the beginning… a wind swept over the waters,” is the beginning of the Creation story. So water is very associated with God for me.
I see a lot of things that are like “how to deal with anxiety” that are really “how to deal with being nervous”. So I am here to tell you that anxiety and nervousness are Decidedly Not the same thing. (As literally anyone with actual anxiety could tell you.)
Here’s the thing. When you first start wirewalking, you take one step onto the wire and lose your balance and fall. And that’s OK. That’s how it’s supposed to go. That’s how you learn. You land on your feet and get back up on the wire and try again. And it takes time, so much time, before you get to two steps, and then three, and then four, and you keep falling. A controlled fall is better than an uncontrolled one that injures you, anyways. (You learn this the hard way.)
At this moment, I am wearing a thermal shirt, cotton sweatshirt, and fleece sweater; two pairs of socks – my regular ankle socks and a pair of very thick wool socks; and three pairs of pants – thermal leggings, regular leggings, and sweatpants. I also have on a nice, cozy hat. I am only now beginning to warm up.